tiger cubs i heart u!

okay, who doesnt watch malaysia versus indonesia for the AFF suzuki cup is...
LAME!

haha, cause the young tigers are just so damn awesome to knock down the bird with an awesome three to zero!!!
we are soooo happy that we scream so loudly macam nak kene sumpit dengan neighbours.
(lupe ke berade kat tanah siape skang..)

to be honest, that laser thing is kinda stupid. but nevertheless, lets hope both supporters behave well and show good showmanship.

i've just read cookie's post, and i cant agree more to what she said
" So, mari kita pakat-pakat berdoa, may Allah grant us with victory on this coming 29th, Amin & InsyaAllah. Gomo Malaysia gomo! 


can't wait for the next match!! ROAR!

agnes bukan monica.

have you guys watched the movie despicable me?
i know the movie is not recent, but it is not that ancient either.

i recently bought the dvd to watch it with my adik2 during the short ponteng holidays.
i never knew that the grown ups had fun watching it too!!!

hehe now im enjoying it with friends back in medan.

ITS SO FLUFFFY!!!!-agnes.

ps - if you havent watch this movie yet, i'll recommend it!

rapikan.

#1
bukan selalu wat entry berlagak mcm yang lepas...
sekali balik mesia demam tak sudah-sudah...
adesss..


hehe.

moral : jgn berlagak okay, Allah tarik senang je.

#2
kalau orang cakap macam-macam sampai keluar sayang mcm mudah sekali tu,
dia betul2 mean it ke?
ke main cakap je, kenape tak macam glomerulonephritis? (maksudnye susah sket la nak cakap)

kawan jenis ape dia saye ni?
(better salahkan diri sendiri dari orang lain)


aduh...

moral : jgn senang percaye dengan kate-kate orang yang dah berpunye sebab orang tu takkan senang tinggalkan apa yang dia ada.

#3
kalau makan ikut ajaran Agama Islam, kenalah sopan kan?
makan sikit-sikit, jangan banyak cakap time mengunyah.
nak tau sebab ape?

kang boleh kena dyspepsia.

case report saye dah siap! hehe.

moral : bile dah diajar dari kecik tu, ingatler...

azam

azam tu datang tiba-tiba.
biasanya tahun baru, azam dibuat.
tapi dalam tak sedar azam tu lah yang keeps us moving foward.

korang selalu berazam tak?

kalau sehari-harian maybe korang ade berazam nak siapkan kerja, nak tido je, nak makan sedap.
kalau minggu-mingguan maybe nak basuh kete (kalau takde kete, motor pun jadik), nak balik kampung, nak makan sedap.
kalau bulan-bulanan maybe nak bayar bil, nak potong rumput kat depan rumah, nak makan sedap.

azam ni biasanya jadi kenyataan bila kita dapat peluang untuk merealisasikannya.

kalau nak habiskan baca 1 bab buku dalam seharian macam dr D#DE SpPD memang tak makan tak BAK BAB* la jawabnya.
azam kene berpatutan.

kalau nak berazam makan sedap tapi duduk kat medan. tak berpatutan.
kalau dah kat mesia macam penulis blog ni, lainlah!

haha, sori ni memang entry keji untuk kawan-kawan yang sedang sibuk koas disana.
ielala farah shafik due afif jangan risau ye..korang punye pesanan saye paling ingat.

:D

*BAK BAB : Buang Air Kecik, Buang Air Besar

on a lighter note

dr F : ibu, batuknya ada memberat buk dalam minggu ini?
ibu pasien : ya, doc.
dr F : oh ya buk? berapa kilo beratnya buk?
ibu pasien : err... *blur*

haha. internal medicine week III.

internal medicine

internal medicine is...

the longest department in the lower cycle for FK USU's clinical period.

one week passed.

and whenever the night shift start..my night and day will become tunggang terbalik.

completely disrupting my circadian rhythm haha.

2 months and 3 weeks to go!

in the meantime...

this is what keeping me company during the wee hours completing assignments..

eid mubarak.

Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha 1431 Hijrah.

I miss having raya at home.
Takbir from nearby mosque.
Waking up in the morning.
Trying to wake up the two little ones (no jenn, they are not so little anymore).
Ummi's cooking.
Solat raya.
Visiting both wan at their respective houses.
More makan-makan.

Eventhough the celebration is simple, but I miss being around the family during festive season.

This year, my raya plan is simple.
Waking up in the morning.
Solat raya.
Makan something.
Oncall day shift.
Balik oncall.
Makan sedap* ramai-ramai.

That's all.
Selamat Hari Raya,everyone!

*makan sedap implies that something extra than we usually have. maybe like pizza hut or something hehe.

the journey so far...

it's been a long time since i posted any pictures. haha.

last month's babies celebration!
happy bdae shazzy, tipz n afikk!

once upon a time in neurology!
shaf was caught sleeping on the job!
cheeky iha!
blurry yanty!
and me, 'fresh' from on-call the previous night.

we're waiting for iha n fara's neuro exam at VIP ward!
what to do : camwhoring!
hajar is so wacky, ielala so ayu, me trying to be cheeky!

we've passed 

cardiology,

dermatology & venereology,

radiology,

psychiatric,

neurology,

dentistry,

now finishing nutrition.

they (my group) also passed respiratory & paediatric department

while I was away, healing from the accident.

we have only one department to go for the lower cycle,

internal medicine.

3 months.

starting Monday next week.

pray for us to become good doctors,

better persons,

in terms of :

humble servants for Allah the Almighty,

appreciative and loving children for our parents,

supportive sibling for our sisters and brothers,

understanding for our colleagues and friends,

helping hands for doctors and supervisors,

and just better in every way possible.

 

missing : food cravings.

Have you ever eaten something delicious that you cant forget the taste of it for a long time?
even if you forget it, you'll remember how happy you are to eat that stuff, the feeling of joy and bliss while finishing up your meal.

I miss feeling like that.

I used to enjoy most of the foods and before that the unexplained cravings that left me feeling incomplete until I get what I want.

Nowadays it's just me eating anything I can get, eating when hungry.
No cravings.
No stupid elevated feelings over some food.

Is it me getting to be more mature? Or simply just me losing my appetite? Or is it because I'm in Medan?

Adeh. T.T

Can facebook be another form of peer pressure?

credits

Someone shared this (even if it has nothing to do with what i am gonna blog) and it got me wondering, can facebook, a social networking site, be a form of peer pressure? In facebook, ‘sharing’ is a strategy for you to share your life with your friends, thus making you and your friends closer. Okay maybe I’m still fresh out from the psychiatric dept, and that may got my mind wired to look out for any psychosocial stress factor in every angle.

You had nearly 500 friends, and every time you click 'SHARE', you are sharing with each one of them. Okay, so the privacy and security point of this has been discussed here and there. But what about the psychosocial point of view?

You share your daily life, including your campus/student life, and if you’re working, work life. So what if he’s doing some astounding course oversea while you’re doing what’s left in hometown. What if he’s a damn awesome pilot? Or a freaking astronaut? While you are still in-between jobs.You share with the whole circle of friends what you do in daily life, whether it’s stated in your info, or your hourly-update-status shows who you are. You were once happy with your daily life, but seeing that person picture,smiling happily near the rocket, or jobs that sent them here and there, or amazing places that they go while their semester break, you tend to look down on yourself, you shy away from them, thinking that they have ‘the life’. We don’t go and say, “hey, what are you up to nowadays?” nowadays. We click on those info pages or we scroll down their wall instead. They might just have a bitter life, but we never know that, and yet we are jealous of them. Kind of peer pressure, don’t you think?

Picture this. The day before you were happy, hanging out with friends on your off-duty day, daily, you are busy and you actually know that you are not ready for a relationship. But today, when you open your facebook account, you see SIX wedding invitations or pictures of couples here and there, and you begin to wonder when will you have that special someone. Sometimes you wish that you had that special someone and be happy like those in the pictures that they shared. OR you recently break off from your relationship and the whole circle knows. You tend to look for your friends’ support by posting status blaming him. Why do you actually do that? Are you afraid that friends talks behind your back and you can be the good guy? Peer pressure written all over that.

(Real) Social Life. Some of us went overboard by updating their super happening life to facebook. Every week or even worse,day(!), there will be pictures and status updates of where they went for their weekly cool hang out and who they have been with. Then there will be some who will think that their life is empty and wish somehow that they had that ‘cool’ kind of life too. Please don’t tell me this is happening. It’s a total show of peer pressure. Everyone has their own cool-in-some-kind-of-way life.

Even in those freaking stupid lame addictive time-filling games, people tend to race each other. Of course, that’s the point of playing games. But staying up all night  watering crops virtually, giving other 55 pets visits, even baking for every 30 minutes and even waking up in the middle of the night to harvest your plants is crazy. Just so you can be one level up from person A, and have that villa, clothes, decorations that you’ve been eyeing to have for your avatar in that game. Pressure by peers. Duh.

Using Facebook has their ups and downs. It’s up to us to use it wisely. Feel good about yourself, use facebook moderately. I hate to see you end up in some psychiatric ward. 

intersection.

dentistry department, bye bye to you!
it's been fun.
especially since I have been so relaxed with only one patient.
hehehe.

today is the start of a new department, nutrition!
2 weeks of playing with foods and menu will be fun. (i hope)
especially before internal medicine.

its like the calm before the storm.

ehem, lets see how calm we will be.
*reading nutrition notes for tomorrow!*

all the best everyone!!

just a thought

sweet right?

credits.

passivity

i hate to go out since i hate experiencing bumps on the road
i hate to go online since sitting for a long time makes my back ache

im living in passivity

cant wait for my next check up.
my heart is longing for approval to do so many things.

saye punya beat da jalan.

hari tu, pegi tengok Betty kat bengkel.
die sehat.
nampak cam baru.

tapi saye tengok die ngan perasaan yang bercampur baur.

sian dia.

saye mungkin tak mampu nak bawak die jauh-jauh dah.
nak bawak pegi lalu ringroad nak ke adam malik pun takut.

Betty, 
saya mintak maaf.
saya takleh bawak awak dah.
saya bukan taknak, tapi takleh.
saya tak berani.


Betty,
buat masa ni biarlah orang lain bawak awak dulu ye.
orang lain tu bukan sape-sape.
sume tu kawan saye yang tolong waktu kite eksiden haritu.
takpekan?


Betty,
nanti saye kumpul kekuatan nak bawak awak balik eh?
tapi slow-slow la.
saye berani bawak takat dari umah kite ke umah kawan-kawan kat taman sebelah je.
nanti da berani sket, saye bawak awak pegi adam malik plak eh?
jangan majok tau.


Betty,
sorry sebab awak kene dok bengkel lame-lame.
tu pun sebab nak dptkan body and sportrim baru untuk awak.
awak suke tak?
dah tak calar-calar.
dah tak bengkok.
ehm, mungkin awak rase awak dah kene mandi skang ni,
tapi tunggulah dulu ye.
tak sempat betul nak hantar awak gi toilet awak kat seberang jalan besar tu.
he.


ikhlas,
jennyto!

tak susah, senyumlah.

MM, 22 years old came with 17 years history of limb weakness.

He came after 17 years of suffering.
His muscles atrophied.
His movements are jerky and involuntary.
But he likes to smile.
He smiled when he saw me, checking his vital and neurologic status day by day.
He smiled when I talked to him.


Today, he PBJ-ed.

That's indonesian for Pasien Berobat Jalan.

Dear friends, I pray for us to be great doctors, and I hope we all learn to brush our problems aside when we are in front of patients, and be professionals.

Smiles to the patients. Because they can do that to us, why cant we?

Senyumlah seindah suria.

stories

some stories are meant to be told.

some are better to keep it to ourselves.

we all had complications in lives.

dramas in real lives.

sad.

happy.

confused.

bitter.

mad.

enjoy.

let's pray that we can get through it all,

insyaAllah.

SHRMZB!

 with love.

jaga diri.

the ramadhan story part 3

jenn gembira.


hari itu,
dapat makan nasi berlaukkan tomyam, paprik dan ikan tongkol bersambal yang enak.
kelmarin,
dapat makan nasi berlaukkan udang masak tempoyak dan sayur campur.
semalam,
dapat makan nasi lemak berlaukkan ayam goreng dan kuih gula melaka.
hari ini,
dapat makan nasi goreng hotdog ditambah nugget.
esok,
mungkin dapat makan nasi putih berlaukkan kepiting (ketam), cumi (sotong), kakap (ikan).

ditambah dengan peneman-neman buka puasa, teman-teman yang menggantikan keluarga di perantauan.
meriahnya ramadhan.

hasil snap-sana-sini

ibadah menghiasi bulan mulia penuh berkah,
semoga kita bertemu tahun depan, insyaAllah.

surat rindu kepada jenn.

Hey Zainab Zulkifli

There’s no easy way to say this, but we miss you. We miss the way you smile, we miss the way you smell, we even miss the dumb jokes you used to tell.

We know it has only been 3 months since you last logged in, but to us it feels like a few years.

...

Chat with you soon!

Hugs,

Yuna and the YouthSays.com Malaysia Team.

yeah, ryte.
i miss you guys too. not.


hehe. :D


how does they know how i smile, n smell, n even worse, the dumb jokes i used to tell?
does anybody apart from these people who doesnt know me, miss me?
email me then. haha.

tidak semua begitu.

here's to my 300th post!

wow. i never thought i would blog until now.
there so many times i feel like deleting this blog but i still remember somebody, someone telling me i shudn't.

well. here i am.

yesterday morning i was wake up with the sound of my ringtone.
not the usual alarm.
but my ringtone.
suprised to see unknown number, i picked it up (while brushing away the sound of sleepiness).

"assalamualaikum dokter mudaaaa!" said the voice. a male voice.

i was like, "waalaikumussalam, siape ni?" i thought i was my Malaysian friend.

"dokter muda Zainab..udah sahur???"

"erm, dah. (lying) siape ni?"

"ini M S**** , kelmarin ketemu di adam malik"

owh. then it hit me. this is my 1st COPD patient that i handled during my respiratory cycle.
how did he get my phone number, u may ask.
well at that time, he was consulting me for some donations for his circumcision programme.

then the line went dead, i went downstairs for some sahur.

then came his SMS.

"buk dokter saya mohon jgn terpancing dgn berita2 yg ada di media masya mengenai antara negara kita."

I replied, saying thanks for his concern and with Allah's blessing, we'll be alright in Medan.

"sekali lagi sy mohon dgn ibu dan kwn2 jgn risau dgn kejadian selama ini. Sy jg sedih dgn apa2 yg terjadi antara negara kita. buk dokter marilah kt sama2 berdoa pd Allah semoga semua masalah cpt selesai"

masih ada yang sayang.

it's Ramadhan, the time for us to forgive and be blessed.
Let us all pray for some peace and harmony between the two nations.

Selamat Menyambut Hari Kemerdekaan buat rakyat Malaysia.

moving.

hai nama saya ielala dan saya adalah comel.

there are so many things happening today.

#1 today is our MOVING day!

Yes, we are moving. I've started packing few days ago, knowing I'm a bit slow due to my conditions.
So with my stuff nearly cleared, I can help Ielala's because...

#2 today is her PAEDS POST TEST!

Her test was scheduled on last Wednesday, but somehow it was re-scheduled to today.
It was kinda sad, because...

#3 today is her BIRTHDAY!

she said, "if the test went well, it will be the best birthday gift ever."
and i said, "if it's not, it's still your birthday gift! nghahaha"
i know, kinda cruel right here.


okay that's about today.
I kinda feel my blog post looked kinda boring without pictures to accompany them.
So I'm gonna start snap-ping here and there!
Till I SNAP you soon! (lame.)

Independence Day, a bit early? no.

Bear with me.
This entry a bit lengthy.

Last Tuesday was Indonesia's 65th Independence Day.
later, by the end of this month will be Malaysia's 53rd.

When I watched the news on Indonesia TV, I felt sad.
Sad that many of the news linked to Malaysia was filled with hatred and repugnant.
Sad to see that on their Independence Day, they do rallies here and there.
Maybe in Malaysia, there are rallies, but only a few? I think.

I'm glad Malaysia's Independence Day is not like that.
For Malaysia, its the day for remembering the struggles in the past.
For me, it's a day for family, and enjoying the happiness of being in a fine country.
Even if it's not perfect.

I cant say Malaysia is a total peace and harmony country.
But I feel that my family has been able to live in some peace and harmony that Malaysia has to offer.

Whew.
I know it's not like me to write about some serious stuff.
But let us all be thankful for where we are now.
No matter where.


Ramadhan + Independence Day + Abroad = Jenn serious side?

ps.
tadi saya berlari dari bilik ke pagar, untuk mengejar Liza untuk pas barang yang tertinggal.
lama sungguh rasanya saya tidak berlari.
rasanya aneh.
teringat seseorang yang sering menanyakan, "dah boleh berlari?" bila saya masih terkedek kedek bersama baju besi saya.
kepada orang itu, "ya, saya sudah bisa."

pss.
pusat sumber sekolah.
tahniah Along!

the ramadhan story part 2

tak perlu rojak singapura.
tak perlu yong tau fu.
tak perlu tau fu fa.
tak perlu daging salai masak lemak cili api.

nasi putih berlaukkan sardin dan telur dadar dihiasi lada merah.
cukup membuka selera bagi juadah berbuka puasa.

Alhamdulillah.

oh ye, korang dah 'like' gamba Along kat Club Mod di FB?

rojak singapura

its the fourth day of Ramadhan and i found myself being lazy.
with nothing to do.

my friends are all busy with their clincal.
i've cleared with the faculty and department on how my pulmonary post test is.
and apparently i cant take the exam next week.
so i have a full week of nothingness coming up.

watching movies, reading novels, playing games on fb (yeah dats my vice)
i shud be taking the opportunity to do more ibadah during these times.

knock on head.

oh, i so wanna cook for my iftar today.
googling recipes now.

i dont know why i miss rojak singapura so much.
not that my family ate dat stuff every Ramadhan, only occasionally.
but then Along boasted that the family had it last night.

ok gamba ni kecik, try clicking it to read
(if u gt nothing to do la)

is it true along?

adik is saying no. hehe.

image taken from here

 this is the best rojak singapura picture i cud get.

wuts ur favorite Ramadhan dish? 

the ramadhan story

perbualan 1 ramadhan
jenn : excitednye nak buka puasa! 
iela : nak buka ape ye?
farah : penatla nak pk nk makan ape.
jenn : farah pk harini, jenn pk esok punye ok?

6.30 p.m
farah nak ayam penyet di akbary. tutup.
jenn berfikir nak ayam penyet di surabaya. tutup.
iela tak berfikir ape-ape.
jenn berbuka makan roti dan serunding.

perbualan 2 ramadhan
liza : jom gi sahur
farah nad : jom
aki : orait. join aje. jom!

4.15 a.m
jenn baru terjaga.
liza, farah nad dan aki sudah di warung zam-zam.
jenn sahur makan roti dengan serunding.

perbualan 2 ramadhan part 2
jenn : hari ni harap harap surabaya bukak
iela : haah berape lame diorg nak tutup

6.53 p.m
hujan lebat.
jenn, farah dan iela baru bangun dari tido.
(buka puasa di medan 6.40 p.m)
jenn, farah dan iela makan roti dan serunding.

semoga esok lebih bernasib baik.
serunding dah habis.

ramadhan. yeay!

re-blogging is hard.
seriously.

well the fasting month of Ramadhan is coming. and i hope the preparations are all nearly done.
just like re-blogging. if we aren't used to it, if we are not prepared for it, we'll find it hard to do.
and also successful stuff happens when the preparations are tip-top, like cooking. (err..?)

so what's on your mind when it comes to Ramadhan?

whatever it is..

let us all welcome the blessed month of Ramadhan and derive maximum benefits from it!

happy fasting. 

and oh, we're moving! :D

le tour de medan

they won.

i watched and cheered.

bandung, here they come!

domestic trouble.

as usual, medan = madness.
okay, maybe i exaggerate a bit.

i'm not yet back physically in medan, but my mind decided to.
because of some events, that apparently cant wait.

our house owner is (pause for five minutes) a lady.
somehow she always cant generate enough money for her life, end up asking rent earlier than usual.
but yesterday, she told us she need the house back.
like what?
and gave us three weeks to move out.

since the house is worsening everyday, my housies decided to go along with it,
like who wanna put up with a house owner like that AND a house that seriously need major repairing?

next week is my pulmonology post test, and acik n ummi's paeds post test.
then the other week is fara n iela's paeds post test, and liza n nisah pulmonology post test.
haih, when are we going to find time?


and i know i need help with my stuff. hmm, sorry korang.

i'll be blogging my next post from medan.
maybe from a new house.

AK45*.........! wait for me :)

i dont know what to name the title of this post

owhkay.
so i felt like i didnt do my blog justice since i have something quite major-life changing experience happening to me and i have 2 full months free to blog about it.

huhu.

i've read this and this.
thank you for the posts. i'm really touched.
and for my lazy post. its for all those people who has been taking care of me when i'm in this situation, somewhat temporarily disabled. thank you.
for all the doa's, the care and support, the wishes.
but im not driving, so i cant park at the disabled parking lot (wth?)

im off to medan this friday, ending my never-ending holiday. (eh?)
where i'll commence back to my regular activities, pretending to cure people.
but, with an additional accessory.

im going back to medan as an iron-clad medical student.
i dont mind being referred as the iron man, really.
iron man is cool, superb, and egoistic. (uh..)

notice the similarities? lol.

so. here i am. blogging.

i miss blogging actually, but i know i dont have the time later on.
(i'll be busy farming at farmville, or ordering the next batch of clothes for retail theraphy, or even baking the sheperd pie at baking life)

oh n im gonna start labelling my post. huh. major blog-changing experience? (knock on head)

looks delicious ryt?

crash boom bang

taking a break from study now...

owe so many people thanks n gratitude..

:)

media

...and the media shift their attention from Gaza strip to Ariel-Luna pornography...


surely, this issue is not seasonal.

baby..ooh..baby

ah, jatuh sakit pula dua tiga hari ni.

but i am thankful that i am back on my feet again. INEEDTOmaaaaaa!

no hols for kami-anak-ko-as.

i experienced first time seeing a live baby-USG yesterday, otherwise another hypo/hyper-echoic lesion-suggestive-of-metastatic-blah-blah-blah.

Allah Maha Besar.

How the baby is created and moving inside the mother's womb, and even how the technology that has been blessed for us enabled us to see it.

like. :)
(so much for fb's 'like')

i should change my blog name to nonsense

"i am not ready to write a mind-blowing, heart-touching entry yet," i said to myself.

but yet everyday i meet up with mind-blowing diseases and everyday someone touches my heart with simple gestures, that can made me smile, or even cry.

"it's just i dont know how to write," i added.

but yet i learnt how to write since i was so young i couldn't barely remember. my parents, my siblings, my kindergarten teacher, primary schoolteacher all contributed to what i am doing write now.

isk.

kalo da name alasan tu, alasan je la.

nonsense part two

went to PORSENI's closing.
cheering for awesome band.
riding Betty with ummi.
eating 1st ever mee hailam at medan.
sleeping.
waking up.
facebooking.
farmville-ing.
gossiping with shazzy.
clearing bushes at lawn.
counting 'buah mangga' and balut-ing them.
eating last night's farah's tom yam.
cooking nasi goreng.
eating nasi goreng.
cooking ayam masak merah n clear soup for ielala's nasi tomato.
facebooking.
blogging.

i am happy i am blessed with these activities.

my happy weekend. :)

what's your typical weekend?

nonsense part one

i'm amazed by some people who can touch people hearts just by words.

but not those who use words to manipulate the heart.

i'm at radiology department now and there's a wide array of patients that i've encounterd everyday.

neglected trauma, suspected tuberculosis, ovarian cyst, just to name a few.

even the radiology department is supposed to be an easy-to-go-through-dept, i find myself not capable of organizing my own self. (-_-")

too caught up with other people plans.

damn. i miss the old, headstrong me.

finished cardio.

cardio : done!

hye, KulKel.
whew, what a week.

cardio (hard)core!

so far, so good :)
lapkas (case presentation), mid test and post test coming up!
pray for me!

exit & on calls.

photocredit-mtv exit

patients 'exit' now n then @ cardio

not on my watch! (hopefully >.< )

clinical days started

it is time :)

youTubeLess!

betty is now tubeless!
awesome!
<3>

1st day!

sape kate hari pertama ko-as (clinical) menyusahkan?
:p

bye hols!

holidays are fun!

thx u guys
<3 style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">P3D a.k.a co-ass, i'm ready for yeh!

kerana saye geram

saye mem'bega'kan desktop.

nampak macam pakai mac.

LOL.

my lips like sugar~

"buat ape nak bersedih atas perbuatan orang kan?"

diri ini memujuk hati yang kononnye terusik.

dari status FB -- i'm dead.

kepada kemas uma :)

*sedikit senyum untuk mencuba menggembirakan hati.

walaupon kemas umah tak semestinya boleh menggembirakan hati.

tapi kalo tengok umah kemas, memang puas hati.

sudahlah episod yang lepas,

hari ini minggu baru, mulakan lembar baru.

berazam untuk membuat lunch untuk adik kesayangan.

not buying from Leha World.

(d akak is back! erk. mals tol nak tengok muke masam die.)

minggu ini ade beberapa aim :

- get those heavy medical books for next sem.

- pay keq's moolah. maaf keq baya lambat sgt.

- ganti puase! :p sikit demi sikit...

tgh humming to david archuleta song..

"try to reach out to touch my hand.."

SUKE!

luvs!

diu diu diu!~

truth is i dont know what to do now.

i THINK i want to start over and start a whole new blog.

like that will start your life once again.

right at this moment, im just pissed off.

tired of dis one person who like to judge me now and then.

and X is not even my mother.

and not my father either.

what im doing online DOESNT neccesarily reflect how im feeling now.

and DOESNT mean dat i look happy and carefree that i dont think about people.

i DO care. and it hurts that u can judge me by my FB status.

so what? i dont like to pour my emotions to the FB.

its like yesterday u dont even know how to use it and now ur attacking me?

LIKE. I. CARE.

well, here's to the 1st post in months...!

huk3...

hehe

HAPPY HOLS!!

dah lamer tak jenguk...
tibe-tibe terase nak jenguk...

kalo saye rajen...

saye akan sambung blog ini dengan jayenye!!
*saye tgh ultimate malas ni!*

:)

saye di mesia skang ni, jom meet up!

not a comeback,just chattering

yes i know i havent blog much and i dont think people do read my blog anymore.

"its ok, nevermind," my lecturer would said.

it's the end of emergency medicine block, and we're struggling to finish 10 weeks of notes in 2 days.

after the exam would be another series of exams, and then i'll be home.

back to home, after 8 months living like a true Medan girl.

i miss my home so much, miss my parents, siblings, friends, foods, and so on.
(see how the food came after the people?)

huhu.

i cant wait to replenish my energy with seeing the spactees.
hanging out with along.
listening to adik and abang stories.
meeting up friends.

c u soon!

confused state. (will i always be like this?)

so i understand.

that u are afraid to love.afraid to let it all out.

coz u've learnt it all.

so why on earth do u do it?


:(

my love, d

happy belated bdae darling~

mish uuu much.

random 2

quoting from arifah's blog - anonymously dedicated.

When you hold true to the believe that there is a Higher Power that holds your heart,
you will be at peace knowing that for every wave of emotions you experience,
there is an explanation as to why you are feeling that way.

Sometimes when it hurts too much,
you will realize that that is when you find strength.

Sometimes when the yearning is too intense,
you will appreciate it all the more.

Sometimes,
no,
all the time,
you just have to be thankful that you are able to feel...

Alhamdulillah.

random 1

what does it mean to write from the heart?

maybe you will feel that you can pour your heart out and all the feelings will be gone, if not lessen, and then you will feel better?

apetah jennyto merapu.

i cant say im perfect.

i cant say im good.

and i cant even say that i tried to be good and near perfect.

i love being around people.
i just do.
sometimes in some crazy way, i'll do anything for people.

even when they shove their asses rite at my face.

wah.

where did that come from. macam org tak berilmu okey.

but wuteffs.

i just want to be happy.

is that hard?

can some1 made me happy?

unhappy, jennyto.

+.::.+ something to ponder +.::.+

berlian adalah bongkahan batu bara yang menjadi bagus di bawah tekanan.

i'm in the middle of thesis-proposal writing. (a.k.a Kerja Tulis Ilmiah)

i'm back, but not as active as before.

i'm hoping someday i'll be the diamond.

+.::.+ i want this! +.::.+

the new iPod shuffle.

welcome back, jennyto.

+.::.+ jennytokah? +.::.+

setelah 262 posts......

SAYA NAK STOP BLOGGING!!









tapi saye kasi seminggu ni untuk pk.

+.::.+ adakah ini jennyto +.::.+

salam guys.

sangat lama telah ku tinggalkan duniaku yang satu ini.
bukan mahuku.
bukan inginku.
tapi oleh kerana speedy sangat ****** sehingga memotong servis selama 1 minggu lebih hanya kerana 3 ribu.

3 ribu rupiah beb.



Selamat Tahun Baru.

agak terlambatkah?
tapi tak kesahlah.
ape azam korang sumer untuk tahun ni?
jennyto takde azam.
die pk untuk lepas yang tengah dihadapi sekarang je.

n theres nothing else on her mind.

n we medic students are supposed to be all-rounded.
yea,dream on jenn, if u keep this kind of attitude.

hey.
ape ni.
tak ceria lansung.

cuti ni sebenarnye seronok.
seronok sangat.

tapi saye bukan jenis yang bercerite kepada semua seperti saye ni pop star untuk anda bace tentang kisah saye.

cube bace kisah Palestine sekarang.
lagi bagus.

tapi saye juge orang yang suke senarai mende yang dibuat waktu cuti.

lol.

mungkin next entry.

---> isnin ni dah start sem baru...emo cuti abes kot.

+.::.+ tagged +.::.+

saye lupe. hari itu saye ditag oleh teman blogging along, yang diberi nama AJ a.k.a caNNyGurl.

huhu terime kaseh.

kerana dalam kebosanan saye di Medan ni, dapatlah saye membuatnye
tahniah, anda mentag saye di mase yang betol!

1. Anda rasa anda hot??
ape punye soklan...medan ni biler je sejuk...pastila ai rase HOT. lol.


2.Upload gambar kegemaran anda

3. Kenapa anda suka gambar ini?
aderlaa reasonnye..huu sy hav fun pade hari ini dengan orang tersebut..hurmmmmmm.
wek wek there goes my happy ending.

4. Bila kali terakhir kamu makan pizza?
semalam! kat papa ron! hee teringin lagi lah..nak rase island plak!

5. Lagu terakhir yang kamu dengar?
have a little faith in me - mandy moore!

6. Apa yang anda sedang buat sekarang ini selain menyelesaikan tag ini?
dengar lagu kat iTunes + chatting ngan bdae girl illani

7. Selain nama kamu sendiri, apakah lagi nama yang kamu suka orang panggil kamu?
jenn + jennyto + jenny + janet (ni wani je yg panggil camneh)

8. Tag lagi lima orang
i. fizul yang suke tag orang..mari tag die balik...
ii. danios! huhu meh2 buat tag..
iii. alang-alang sume dak SKTPJ dulu, tag la jugak nadeetos yang jauh di Troy sane!
iv. saye nak tag dewi shuwa lah...tak penah kot tag dier lagi...
v. saye winduuuuuuuuuuu aimi!! teman USU sayer...

9. Siapa orang nombor satu?
kawan saye time skola rendah dulu

10. Orang nombor tiga ada hubungan dengan siapa?
emm BFF danios!! kan..? kan..?

11. Katakan sesuatu berkenaan org nombor lima
die ni kawaii!!! gi la lawat blog dier huhu!

12. Bagaimana pula dengan orang nombot empat?
saye leh kate confidence level die tinggi! huhu...

13. Siapakah orang nombor dua?
danios!! kawan yang best dari skola rendah wuwuwuwuwuuu~

p.s-otak orang cuti..nampak mindless giler~

+.::.+ so here comes the doom lol +.::.+

I was about to delete this post cause I felt so helpless in not helping my family n all n kinda regret not coming home.
but then, by not coming home, that means less money to spend, and more money for the fees.
Alhamdulillah JPA now discovered that they dont cover enough gor our fees.

I'm worried about things at home and I haven't talk to anyone about it.
but I dont know why I even wrote it here.

I. just. dont. like. it.
the idea of people knowing how you are and family n so on.
its okay for me to huhu haha about here n there but i dont usually talk about my feelings, if u noticed.

but then, i seriously hadnt talk to anyone at all about this.
how my feelings are exactly.
but.
lets keep it that way.

so today was the day of the holidays that the last flight from medan embark from bandara polonia.

and last night was Fara's flight, and she was the last person from our house to leave for the hols.

it was kinda sad actually, eventho there are some things that cant be explained happened, I truly enjoyed being with you guys and do other stuff apart from studying.
(i know i'm beginning to sound like a L-O-S-E-R but whaddaheck)


balik from the airport, rase sunyi Medan ni.
kan, Uda?
well, Uda said it is normal in the beginning, especially when people started to go back n stuff, but it'll be okay. lucky me, Iela wud be around.

saye, iela n fara yg berbaju langsir hehe tgh tunggu flight yg delay
sambil menibai croissant kat dunkin donut!

the past few days had been fun, watching movies, dining and hanging out. Wif Iela, Fara, Aki Aneh hehe, Intan, Syaza, Aciko, Nisah...and yang laen2..maaf tak sebut kalo tak tersebut. surely highlights of my hols wud be these days!! (lame-O, i know)

tgh makan pizza hut dengan syaza, aki, iela, farah, n uda n apip tapi jennyto-saket-perot-nak-mati.
thanx kawan2 yg membantu...

dengan intan faDiLLah hehe n nisah di palladium!!~

aKi tgkap gamba neh..tgh tunggu tgk twilight utk 4th time huhu

anyway for the hols, I've got these two things I have to attend to.
No thanx to Iela for agreeing lol,

saye takut jage2 hewan ni...

I have to decline Mumtaz's rabbit n Abbi's mamot coz I'm afraid banyak banyak nant tak terjage huhu sowwy guys.

moCca & eLi

so guys, happy holidays from me, hope u have a great one! I miss u all~

owe..saye rindu juge orang2 yang saye usually ketemu during my holiday.
alOngness.

D. & rest of spactees.

danioS.

dieL.
my recent lifesaver.

kamu2 lah!!!!

take care, xOxO!!

+.::.+ how I end up at J.Co +.::.+

freaking out for i've dropped another size for my waist.





tak cukup makan kah aku?
TIDAK
makanan ku tak berzatkah?
TIDAK
terlampau banyak exesais ke aku?
TIDAK LANSUNG
terlampau stress kah aku?
mungkin.





actually the main reason for trying the jeans was to buy it, as an antidote for my already messed up feelings.





tapi oleh kerna my new size was not available, i wasn't able to.





uhm.





so i went to J.Co.

with a glazzy & chocomint freeze, my feelings are better than before.

eventho rase cam loser gler layan J.Co sorangsorang.

JENNYTO EMO EMO EMO sume orang balik hari ne tapi takde orang pon nak enjoy enjoy
MENCILAH KORANG ENJOY TAK AJAK I KNOW LAH SEBOK PACKING MALAS BETOL.

+.::.+ post twilight +.::.+

[WnDs]Si_Jali (12/14/2008 10:56:59 PM): aku nk bg ko tgk ayat aku ni

[WnDs]Si_Jali (12/14/2008 10:57:02 PM): meyakinkan ke x

[WnDs]Si_Jali (12/14/2008 10:57:40 PM): ala ko guna ym

[WnDs]Si_Jali (12/14/2008 10:57:44 PM): jap aku antar ke fs ko

jenn_me86 (12/14/2008 10:58:31 PM): huhu pulak

[WnDs]Si_Jali (12/14/2008 10:58:33 PM): dah 3 minggu x msk fs..

jenn_me86 (12/14/2008 10:58:40 PM): haha aq pon

[WnDs]Si_Jali (12/14/2008 10:58:46 PM): ko la 3 minggu x msk fs

jenn_me86 (12/14/2008 10:58:54 PM): eh ye ke hehe

[WnDs]Si_Jali (12/14/2008 10:59:04 PM): ok dah sent

so what if i hadnt log in to friendster for 3 weeks.
please abaikan betape blurnye saye dlm ym.
anyway...

i think i had enough of Twilight than anyone else.

I had enough??!

seriously?
I dont think so.
The Cullens are just so delicious to look at. And I totally heart Jasper!!

I know everyone else had done the review of the movie, but whaddaheck.
I think the movie hadn't develop the characters strong enough for the people to love them for it
( I bet the director think good looks are all that matters )
Bella was supposedly to be all clumsy and all that, but she just trip on something, like, 3 times.

And the movie should show us more of the Cullens, how they are actually, coz I know people cant get enough of them, i know i cant LOL.

The music that played throughout the movie was fine.
Claps for Paramore, Iron and Wine, Muse, and The Black Ghost.
But for the music that was supposed to be Edward's piece was not so great.
It ddn't fit the scene, it didn't sound beautiful.

LOL. macam pro.

despite all that comments, sape lak kutu yang gi tgk movie ni sampai 4 kali kan....?

LOL.

anyway, happy weekend y'all!
May you have nice weekend in Malaysia (or in Medan, call me up n we'll set something up!)

this is for along : pisang bakar.

+.::.+ wut do u think +.::.+

i was thinking to blog about the unexplained addiction to facebook.

or the unexplained reason of my recent cinema-watching behaviour.

or even my examination results.

but then, suddenly an awful pain struck and i think...

later only lah.

hmmph.

+.::.+ start memblog kembali +.::.+

ye saye dah berjanji ngan diri saye akan lebih memblog kini exam dan segalanya telah selesai.





huhu well for the past few days, i've had several outings with those ppl who will be in Malaysia very soon. a.k.a semua orang. lol.

yess, jennyto tak balik coz she love medan so much.

i'm enjoying every bit of it, cz i know when they all had went back, it sure will be boringg n sunyi ( n i can blog more cz i have so much time then :p )

us. achiko is on the other side, with her aikido fwens

seriously i havent got the mood to blog yet, i rather play pet society on facebook lol.

tgh tunggu farah addicted to it plak.. heheh..

+.::.+ kenapa saya dah lame tak blog? +.::.+

1. sebab tengah final exam


2. sebab terkadang internet cam mengong


3. sebab saya takde idea


4. sebab sebok sgt bace blog org sampai terlupe nak update blog sendiri


5. sebab saya melayan facebook


6. sebab saya hidup in the real world :p


7. sebab saye bosan da tgk blog saye ni. nanti lah cuti saye nak tuka template sume kasi revamp sket. ungu putih ni sungguh bukan saye! uhh!

(macam tag plak rasenye. ade sape-sape ke nak bwat? lol. pathetic gler.)

+.::.+ twilight +.::.+

r u caught up with the twilight phenomenon yet?
if ur not, im sure u will!!







here in Medan, english storybooks are scarce. seriously.


even the Harry Potter final book only last 2 weeks at Gramedia.
after that came out the Indonesian version of it, and the original (read : english) version are gone.
POOF!
like that.


along...leh pesan tak buku2 ni...?


i dont read ebooks much, 'cept when doin tutorial reports, and the need to refer to many books and of course I didnt buy 2 or 3 books for one study block, so ebooks are the answer. (dat is thank you to friends that supplied the references.)


anyway, twilight has hit Medan screen last night.
It was a full house, and no I wasnt able to purchase a tix.


edward cullen = cedric diggory!! *awesome!*


cz im know there are people out there who aren't accessible to english storybooks (like me!)
and people who dont have enough money to buy em!
sep punye pasal...


here are the four books for u guys to download n enjoy!!

twilight the series!
click here!

just make sure u have microsoft reader.
if u dont. install it.
its free.

click here to install microsoft reader

later peeps!

+.::.+ cz i luv u D +.::.+

Tagged by my BFF - D.
Just so u know im in no mood to blog.

Part 1 :


1) Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture of yourself right NOW!.
2) DON’T change your clothes, DON’T fix your hair…just take a picture.
3) Post that picture with NO editing.
4) Post these instruction with your picture.
5) Tag 10 people to do this

instead these instruction, i wore the tudung.
karang kontroversi kang........!

Part 2 :

1.How old are you?
22 years and 11 days old.

2. Are you single?
Yes. I'm not married yet.

3. In what age do you think you’ll get married? Emm next year?
Yeah jenn, u wish.

4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
No. LOL. Its not like I'm with anybody right now.

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
HIS NAME IS....





hah. gotcha. i have no idea. I have some ideas now n then. but, u see, there's nobody with me right now. pathetic answer.

6. Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional wedding?
Garden of course. And of course we cant always have what we want.

7. Your ideal motif?
Emm, gee, i dont know.

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
I really love surprises, so future husband, surprise me!

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?
Nobody wants a big wedding, d. *Maybe some local stars do* but when u start listing the guest's names, u'll end up having a long list anyway. Wut am i talking about? I have no idea. Maybe i dont think about the guest so much, I dont care.

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
Yup..simple n sweet.

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own??
I haven't think about this yet.

12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?
If D wants 5. I want 13! LOL. I want it to be more than a simple cake of course. Two would be nice.

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
D answered : I prefer it to be at a hotel, to save time and energy for cleaning up afterwards.
and Jennyto agreed!!

14. When do you want to get married, evening or morning?
Evening. kalo pagi2 org tdo.

15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
Indoor!! Panas la kat lua...

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom/bride?
Yes of course!

17. Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding?
I know Along had already had hers! I still havent list it down yet but it surely doesnt involve all those keroncong n malay songs that people karaoke-d to!

18. Are you a morning person or a night person?
I can be both.

19. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
A light one. Who wants a solemn ceremony for their wedding??!!!

20. What age do you want to get married?
NOW? YIKES!

21. Describe your ideal husband/wife.
Erm...understanding.
dat's what i get so far.

22. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
The normal spork/knife please.

23. Champagne or red wine?
Neither.

24. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
We'll see.

25. Money or household item?
emm both jugak kot.

26. Who will pay for the bills?
Of course I wont answer "ME!!!". But we'll see.

27. Are you ready for married life?
Ha.

29. Will you always be true to your wife/husband?
D answered : No doubt. I'm a very loyal person, you know. Marriage is for life.
Jennyto says : We all should b like D!!!

30. How many kids do you like?
3. probably.

31. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
any house wud do. but it have to be nice. oh D, i love the infinity pool.

32. Will you celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding?
uhhhhhh.

33. What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?
I'll let my wedding planner decide that. Oh please insert something cheesy.

34. Will you record your honeymoon in a cd or dvd?
DVD. Who use CD nowadays?

I should tag ten people :

1. hafizah azmi.
2. nadiah roduan.
3. alynn.
4. emma mardhiah.
5. amy emyla.
6. aliaa chan.
7. sis anje.
8. aimi yang baru kene bg no fon oleh a waiter.
9. as.
10. szakif.

+.::.+ its not forever, no chris brown +.::.+

i know, i know.



i've not been here for, like, ages.



n i let my bdae went just like that.



not like matematismuda or szakif or even emma with their happening bdae tales news.



okay.



im still trying to decide whether to be fakingly positive over here.

or just being a pain in the ass.



i dont like to throw a tantrum in my blog and spit all my angst here.

i mean, i dont mind if anybody would like to tell how much they hate A n B.

but i just simply cant.



its because my feelings are just to complicated to be weaved on words.



other than my internet has some issues with my 1.9kg thingy.

i'll be back.
but when, im not sure.

infinite x's and o's to those who called me their friends, and meant that well.

+.::.+ u cant fight it +.::.+

selepas exam.

i tot of lepaking in the house, layan lagu or the net sampai mate bengkak.
but suddenly....

BLACKOUT!!!

so I have to give in and follow my housies to Sun Plaza,
yea, where else?!

after buying NEEDED stuff,
damn saye sudah lame tak punyai wang extra untuk bershopping-handai.
saye pegi melawat bioskopnya.

HSM3!!!

Nak x nak, i dragged my already ngantok housies to watch the happy-dreams-come-true-typical-disney movie at midnight.


i, myself, LOVE it!

heart u ryan sharpay! ;)

balik-balik....

BANJIR!!!!!!!!!!!

di awal pagi gatal jugak nak makan so meredah banjir. ewe.

kedalaman ini diluar rumah. didalam juga samer.

ewe.

the water rises quickly between 2-5a.m and we all cuddled up on the sofa waiting for the highest level that it would rise.

sejuk giler and very ewe-y.

very very.

ewe-y.

around 10 am gitu, dah mula nampak kesurutan dan nearly lunch time we all da start cleaning up the house. huuuuuuh. capek deh!

aftermath :

-penat mencuci umah satu hari suntuk.
-penat giler sampai TERPONTENG kelas untuk 2jam pertama blok baru, Special Sense
-4 charger adapter laptop rosak
-habis ketas2 macam haper basah
-almari yang kembang-kembang
-rumah jadi lebih bersih. itu hikmahnye kowt. :p

*thanx ummi azmira kasik update blog dari laptop die. thanx iela bagi pinjam laptop untuk transfer gamba bagai. thanx kak hajar untuk kasik pinjam laptop siapkan makalah!!!!!!!!!!!!!

woot. luv u guys. xoxo! later~